If you notice the last blog was posted today right before this one, its because I'm an idiot and I wrote it a few days ago and forgot to publish it. 

Anyways today was complete torture, I couldn't do anything right.  It started off in my afternoon session where I lost a bunch.  I didn't play bad or anything, but in these cap games there's so many all-ins that the variance can be killer if its not going your way.  I ended up taking a break for a few hours, went for a run, cleared my head and sat back at the tables.  But that didn't seem to do anything b/c I continued to lose.  I probably should of stopped, but I didn't.  I wasn't playing horribly,  I just couldn't win any all-in pots.  And I'm used to all this, it stings a bit, but honestly taking bad beats and losing coin flips just roll off my shoulders.  I'm at the point now that when I get it all-in preflop and its a coin flip situation I don't even watch to see what happens. 

The only bad part about this, is that it will suck going to Vegas on a downswing.  Downswings mess with your mind and especially with your confidence.  I kept trying to be positive over the last couple weeks and tell myself I'm not in a downswing, but today definitely assured me that I am.  And I'm completely ok with it.  I've been in this situation before, I know what to do.. I know how to recover.  It might be a bit tougher than usual because I've lost more, but whatever.. it comes with the territory.

I don't usually post any results, but I'll make an exception to show how variance can be a bitch,  Here's a graph from today's session..  
 
May 7th Graph

As you can see my loses are pretty gross compared to my EV line.  For those who don't know the EV line shows what I should of won/lost in all-in situations.  And to be honest that graph doesn't even do justice because it only shows all-in pots, not pots where I have the nuts and get turned or rivered then got it all-in.  Anyways,  I don't look too much into EV graphs, but its a little re-assuring to know that I'm not playing horribly.  The money I lost doesn't bother me at all, its a minor hiccup... it just gets mentally draining to lose pot after pot. 

Also today started the Full Tilt Online Poker Series which is a compilation of tournaments over the next week or so.  I decided to play the $550 Shoot-Out tourney with no success.  About 15 minutes in this hand happened:




Obviously pretty standard, not much I can do but lose.  Me and Chantro have still been playing those super turbo tournaments with limited success also.  You just have to run sooooo good in those things to win or you're fucked.  The other night we made it down to 20ish players, get it in with AJ vs A7 and lose right before the real money kicks in. 

I'm trying to look for my database from today and find any interesting hands, but they are pretty much all standard bad beats which are boring to look at.  Let me take a look if I can find anything remotely interesting.



^ Lol, I forgot about this hand...  it wasn't very fun


^Shit sorry, I forgot I wasn't posting bad beats

 
^ Ok lets end this on a good note, because NOTHING pleases me more than a fish bluffing into me drawing dead.  And I don't mean them bluffing with one or two outs, I mean completely dead.  It brings me a lot of joy when this happens and this hand was a perfect of example of it. 


So I hope this blog didn't come of as being whiny or anything because I'm truly not.  Sometimes writing about losing can be a little therapeutic and reminds me to continue to look at the big picture.  These minor downswings can be very mentally taxing and these are the times I challenge people when they think playing poker for a living is a piece of cake.

Till next time.