So after righting my last blog it really lit a fire cracker up my ass.  I've been super focused and re-dedicated.  I've only played a couple of sessions but I can feel the positive energy coming back.  Its not that I've been winning either, I think I still break even over those sessions, I'm just enjoying myself a lot more.  After I finished my last blog I started to think I was almost feeling sorry for myself because I was running bad, which is pretty pathetic.  If I even look at my results during this year, I've ran VERY well with great results.  I guess emotions are going to creep into your poker game from time to time, just have to keep them in check when you start feeling sorry for yourself.

I read a pretty inspirational blog by Phil Galfond, here it is if you want to take a read.  Maybe if you're not a poker player you'll read it and it won't affect you too much, but listening to one of the top pros in the world talk about emotions and running bad put things in perspective for me.  I guess its just good to hear that no matter what limits you're playing or how much money you have, the same emotions come into play.  Being able to control those emotions and ego are crucial for long term success.  He mentioned something about how the brain has a funny way of protecting your ego and its so true.  I continuously have sessions where I think 'man if I was definitely the best player at that table, if I just would of ran good I would of won.'  And maybe its the true, but I should be smart enough to know winning every time you think you have an edge at the table is ridiculous.  So many other factors come into play in being a winning player and a lot of times I seem to forget that.  I strive on having good work ethic, and I believe this is probably one of the number one factors for my success. I started to think of a lot of the regulars in the limits I play, and do I think I'm THAT much better then them?  Probably not.  But I will work as hard as I can to be better and win more.

 Who knows how long I'll be playing this game for, but when all is said and done, I don't want to look back and think maybe I could of done better, or maybe I could of won more.  I'll be honest, I don't usually put everything I got into things I do.  You know those people who know matter what they are doing, they give it 150% till they finish... I'm definitely not one of them, but with poker I have to whether I like it or not.  Failure really isn't an option. 

Sorry for rambling, sometimes I forget people will read this and I just start typing.

I'm going to try and keep this positive energy flowing and have a good week no matter what the results are.  I'll let you know how it goes.


ttyl

Jay